THE BALLAD OF READING
GAOL
I.
He did not wear his scarlet
coat,
For blood and wine are red,
And blood and wine were on
his hands
When they found him with
the dead,
The poor dead woman whom
he loved,
And murdered in her bed.
He walked amongst the Trial
Men
In a suit of shabby grey;
A cricket cap was on his
head,
And his step seemed light
and gay;
But I never saw a man who
looked
So wistfully at the day.
I never saw a man who looked
With such a wistful eye
Upon that little tent of
blue
Which prisoners call the
sky,
And at every drifting cloud
that went
With sails of silver by.
I walked, with other souls
in pain,
Within another ring,
And was wondering if the
man had done
A great or little thing,
When a voice behind me whispered
low,
"That fellow's got to swing."
Dear Christ! the very prison
walls
Suddenly seemed to reel,
And the sky above my head
became
Like a casque of scorching
steel;
And, though I was a soul
in pain,
My pain I could not feel.
I only knew what haunted thought
Quickened his step, and why
He looked upon the garish
day
With such a wistful eye;
The man had killed the thing
he loved,
And so he had to die.
Yet each man kills the thing
he loves,
By each let this be heard,
Some do it with a bitter
look,
Some with a flattering word,
The coward does it with a
kiss,
The brave man with a sword!
Some kill their love when
they are young,
And some when they are old;
Some strangle with the hands
of Lust,
Some with the hands of Gold:
The kindest use a knife,
because
The dead so soon grow cold.
Some love too little, some
too long,
Some sell, and others buy;
Some do the deed with many
tears,
And some without a sigh:
For each man kills the thing
he loves,
Yet each man does not die.
He does not die a death of
shame
On a day of dark disgrace,
Nor have a noose about his
neck,
Nor a cloth upon his face,
Nor drop feet foremost through
the floor
Into an empty space.
He does not sit with silent
men
Who watch him night and day;
Who watch him when he tries
to weep,
And when he tries to pray;
Who watch him lest himself
should rob
The prison of its prey.
He does not wake at dawn to
see
Dread figures throng his
room,
The shivering Chaplain robed
in white,
The Sheriff stern with gloom,
And the Governor all in shiny
black,
With the yellow face of Doom.
He does not rise in piteous
haste
To put on convict-clothes,
While some coarse-mouthed
Doctor gloats, and notes
Each new and nerve-twitched
pose,
Fingering a watch whose little
ticks
Are like horrible hammer-blows.
He does not feel that sickening
thirst
That sands one's throat,
before
The hangman with his gardener's
gloves
Comes through the padded
door,
And binds one with three
leathern thongs,
That the throat may thirst
no more.
He does not bend his head
to hear
The Burial Office read,
Nor, while the anguish of
his soul
Tells him he is not dead,
Cross his own coffin, as
he moves
Into the hideous shed.
He does not stare upon the
air
Through a little roof of
glass:
He does not pray with lips
of clay
For his agony to pass;
Nor feel upon his shuddering
cheek
The kiss of Caiaphas.
II.
Six weeks the guardsman walked
the yard,
In the suit of shabby grey:
His cricket cap was on his
head,
And his step was light and
gay,
But I never saw a man who
looked
So wistfully at the day.
He did not wring his hands
nor weep,
Nor did he peek or pine,
But he drank the air as though
it held
Some healthful anodyne;
With open mouth he drank
the sun
As though it had been wine!
And I and all the souls in
pain,
Who tramped the other ring,
Forgot if we ourselves had
done
A great or little thing,
And watched with gaze of
dull amaze
The man who had to swing.
So with curious eyes and sick
surmise
We watched him day by day,
And wondered if each one
of us
Would end the self-same way,
For none can tell to what
red Hell
His sightless soul may stray.
At last the dead man walked
no more
Amongst the Trial Men,
And I knew that he was standing
up
In the black dock's dreadful
pen,
And that never would I see
his face
For weal or woe again.
Like two doomed ships that
pass in storm
We had crossed each other's
way:
But we made no sign, we said
no word,
We had no word to say;
For we did not meet in the
holy night,
But in the shameful day.
A prison wall was round us
both,
Two outcast men we were:
The world had thrust us from
its heart,
And God from out His care:
And the iron gin that waits
for Sin
Had caught us in its snare.
III.
In Debtors' Yard the stones
are hard,
And the dripping wall is
high,
So it was there he took the
air
Beneath the leaden sky,
And by each side a warder
walked,
For fear the man might die.
Or else he sat with those
who watched
His anguish night and day;
Who watched him when he rose
to weep,
And when he crouched to pray;
Who watched him lest himself
should rob
Their scaffold of its prey.
And twice a day he smoked
his pipe,
And drank his quart of beer:
His soul was resolute, and
held
No hiding-place for fear;
He often said that he was
glad
The hangman's day was near.
But why he said so strange
a thing
No warder dared to ask:
For he to whom a watcher's
doom
Is given as his task,
Must set a lock upon his
lips,
And make his face a mask.
With slouch and swing around
the ring
We trod the Fools' Parade!
We did not care: we knew
we were
The Devils' Own Brigade:
And shaven head and feet
of lead
Make a merry masquerade.
We tore the tarry rope to
shreds
With blunt and bleeding nails;
We rubbed the doors,and scrubbed
the floors,
And cleaned the shining rails:
And, rank by rank, we soaped
the plank,
And clattered with the pails.
We sewed the sacks, we broke
the stones,
We turned the dusty drill:
We banged the tins, and bawled
the hymns,
And sweated on the mill:
But in the heart of every
man
Terror was lying still.
So still it lay that every
day
Crawled like a weed-clogged
wave:
And we forgot the bitter
lot
That waits for fool and knave,
Till once, as we tramped
in from work,
We passed an open grave.
Right in we went, with soul
intent
On Death and Dread and Doom:
The hangman, with his little
bag,
Went shuffling through the
gloom:
And I trembled as I groped
my way
Into my numbered tomb.
That night the empty corridors
Were full of forms of Fear,
And up and down the iron
town
Stole feet we could not hear,
And through the bars that
hide the stars
White faces seemed to peer.
But there is no sleep when
men must weep
Who never yet have wept:
So we--the fool, the fraud,
the knave--
That endless vigil kept,
And through each brain on
hands of pain
Another's terror crept.
Alas! it is a fearful thing
To feel another's guilt!
For, right within, the sword
of Sin
Pierced to its poisoned hilt,
And as molten lead were the
tears we shed
For the blood we had not
spilt.
The warders with their shoes
of felt
Crept by each padlocked door,
And peeped and saw, with
eyes of awe,
Grey figures on the floor,
And wondered why men knelt
to pray
Who never prayed before.
The morning wind began to
moan,
But still the night went
on:
Through its giant loom the
web of gloom
Crept till each thread was
spun:
And, as we prayed, we grew
afraid
Of the Justice of the Sun.
At last I saw the shadowed
bars,
Like a lattice wrought in
lead,
Move right across the whitewashed
wall
That faced my three-plank
bed,
And I knew that somewhere
in the world
God's dreadful dawn was red.
At six o'clock we cleaned
our cells,
At seven all was still,
But the sough and swing of
a mighty wing
The prison seemed to fill,
For the Lord of Death with
icy breath
Had entered in to kill.
He did not pass in purple
pomp,
Nor ride a moon-white steed.
Three yards of cord and a
sliding board
Are all the gallows' need:
So with rope of shame the
Herald came
To do the secret deed.
We waited for the stroke of
eight:
Each tongue was thick with
thirst:
For the stroke of eight is
the stroke of Fate
That makes a man accursed,
And Fate will use a running
noose
For the best man and the
worst.
We had no other thing to do,
Save to wait for the sign
to come:
So, like things of stone
in a valley lone,
Quiet we sat and dumb:
But each man's heart beat
thick and quick,
Like a madman on a drum!
With sudden shock the prison-clock
Smote on the shivering air,
And from all the gaol rose
up a wail
Of impotent despair,
Like the sound the frightened
marshes hear
From some leper in his lair.
And as one sees most fearful
things
In the crystal of a dream,
We saw the greasy hempen
rope
Hooked to the blackened beam,
And heard the prayer the
hangman's snare
Strangled into a scream.
And all the woe that moved
him so
That he gave that bitter
cry,
And the wild regrets, and
the bloody sweats,
None knew so well as I:
For he who lives more lives
than one
More deaths that one must
die.
IV.
There is no chapel on the
day
On which they hang a man:
The Chaplain's heart is far
too sick,
Or his face is far too wan,
Or there is that written
in his eyes
Which none should look upon.
So they kept us close till
nigh on noon,
And then they rang the bell,
And the warders with their
jingling keys
Opened each listening cell,
And down the iron stair we
tramped,
Each from his separate Hell.
Out into God's sweet air we
went,
But not in wonted way,
For this man's face was white
with fear,
And that man's face was grey,
And I never saw sad men who
looked
So wistfully at the day.
I never saw sad men who looked
With such a wistful eye
Upon that little tent of
blue
We prisoners called the sky,
And at every happy cloud
that passed
In such strange freedom by.
But there were those amongst
us all
Who walked with downcast
head,
And knew that, had each got
his due,
They should have died instead:
He had but killed a thing
that lived,
Whilst they had killed the
dead.
For he who sins a second time
Wakes a dead soul to pain,
And draws it from its spotted
shroud
And makes it bleed again,
And makes it bleed great
gouts of blood,
And makes it bleed in vain!
Like ape or clown, in monstrous
garb
With crooked arrows starred,
Silently we went round and
round
The slippery asphalte yard;
Silently we went round and
round,
And no man spoke a word.
Silently we went round and
round,
And through each hollow mind
The Memory of dreadful things
Rushed like a dreadful wind,
And Horror stalked before
each man,
And Terror crept behind.
The warders strutted up and
down,
And watched their herd of
brutes,
Their uniforms were spick
and span,
And they wore their Sunday
suits,
But we knew the work they
had been at,
By the quicklime on their
boots.
For where a grave had opened
wide,
There was no grave at all:
Only a stretch of mud and
sand
By the hideous prison-wall,
And a little heap of burning
lime,
That the man should have
his pall.
For he has a pall, this wretched
man,
Such as few men can claim:
Deep down below a prison-yard,
Naked, for greater shame,
He lies, with fetters on
each foot,
Wrapt in a sheet of flame!
For three long years they
will not sow
Or root or seedling there:
For three long years the
unblessed spot
Will sterile be and bare,
And look upon the wondering
sky
With unreproachful stare.
They think a murderer's heart
would taint
Each simple seed they sow.
It is not true! God's kindly
earth
Is kindlier than men know,
And the red rose would but
glow more red,
The white rose whiter blow.
Out of his mouth a red, red
rose!
Out of his heart a white!
For who can say by what strange
way,
Christ brings His will to
light,
Since the barren staff the
pilgrim bore
Bloomed in the great Pope's
sight?
But neither milk-white rose
nor red
May bloom in prison air;
The shard, the pebble, and
the flint,
Are what they give us there:
For flowers have been known
to heal
A common man's despair.
So never will wine-red rose
or white,
Petal by petal, fall
On that stretch of mud and
sand that lies
By the hideous prison-wall,
To tell the men who tramp
the yard
That God's Son died for all.
Yet though the hideous prison-wall
Still hems him round and
round,
And a spirit may not walk
by night
That is with fetters bound,
And a spirit may but weep
that lies
In such unholy ground,
He is at peace--this wretched
man--
At peace, or will be soon:
There is no thing to make
him mad,
Nor does Terror walk at noon,
For the lampless Earth in
which he lies
Has neither Sun nor Moon.
The Chaplain would not kneel
to pray
By his dishonoured grave:
Nor mark it with that blessed
Cross
That Christ for sinners gave,
Because the man was one of
those
Whom Christ came down to
save.
Yet all is well; he has but
passed
To Life's appointed bourne:
And alien tears will fill
for him
Pity's long-broken urn,
For his mourners be outcast
men,
And outcasts always mourn.
THE END
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